Post by edward winters. on Jul 24, 2009 15:14:15 GMT -5
[/b][/font][/size]dward winters life had quite unintentionally gone to waste. as much as he tried to deny it, as much as he managed to slither past college, as much as anyone told him otherwise. the boy used to have so much potential, could've done something productive. maybe he would've followed his life-long inspiration of being a journalist. that was all shot to hell now, though. it was probably all because of a girl, which is entirely pathetic if you ask me. but in his eyes, logan was never just a girl. she was basically his life, and when his life walked out on him, he basically turned to the two things that he would always be able to depend on. pot and sex. it was pretty simple to him, and probably just him. nobody understood why he had changed the way he did. after all, the kid had gone through so much already, he must be grieving. when edward's father died, he had no one to turn to. no one that put up with all of shit anymore, to be honest ed didn't blame them. cigarettes, pot, it was all such a prominent part of his life he could barely remember what it was like without it. and if he could, he tried not to. everyone wanted to forget. he was no different, except he probably went through different ways of achieving that. fucking your way through society isn't going to solve all of your problems, but edward winters was gone, and he was far from listening to reason. nothing made sense.---- e
---- a[/b][/font][/size]lthough, the reason why logan had left him was still unresolved and still in the back of edward's head, along with the feeling that he was just stupid and worthless and quite obviously did something wrong. maybe she had been scared. it was something he had never been able to figure out and most likely never would be able to. but if he had one wish in his life, for anything, it would be for her to come back in his life- and that was something he was ashamed of. he should've just gotten over it already. but he couldn't, no matter how he tried, with his best friends rum and mary jane. and that was then, and this is now. the two of them were stuck in seattle, washington- and unfortunately, the city wasn't all that big. they were bound to run into eachother at any second, which is why ed had turned into a hermit the last couple days and stayed inside his apartment in fear. after all, things weren't that good right now. he was pretty sure half of the city hated his guts, the ones who didn't were people he's fucked (california amor obviously among those), and his dealer had run out on him. honestly, ed could perfectly deal with a meteor suddenly falling out of the sky and hitting him on the head. in fact, he wished it did. there was nothing for him here. most of the time, edward just felt incredibly out of place.
---- N[/b][/font][/size]ow, it was one in the morning, and edward had built up the courage enough to venture out as he usually did. the nightlife in seattle never stopped, in fact if you lived in a place close enough to any club you’ll doubtfully get any sleep. with a pack of marlboros in his hand and a lighter in the other, he slowly entered the loud obnoxious club, the door slamming shut behind him. ed sat at an open seat at the bar, completely oblivious and uncaring to the women’s faces who had suddenly lit up when he had entered the room. “vodka.“[/i] the word was so familiar and comforting to him, he thought, as he lit up a cigarette and inhaled on the cancer stick. smoke drifted upward in rings, and a thought suddenly occurred to him. she couldn’t be here, right? pale, green eyes quickly scanned around him, not catching sight of any petite brunette that could possibly be her. ed quickly dismissed the side of him that was immensely disappointed. in fact, he thought, even if she was here, she wouldn’t change anything at all. it was over, said and done with, all in the past. maybe he needed to let go, but edward was fucking far from being perfect, or doing anything that would make sense at all. he wasn’t much of a planner, never was. and he certainly wasn’t going to be planning what to ‘do’ with his life anytime soon. he had no interest in that anymore. as the shots came and the warm liquid trickled down his throat, the familiar drowsiness swept over him and he welcomed it with open arms. baby seasons change, but what’s so hard to grasp is that people do, too.[/sup]
status[/size][/font][/i] , finished.
music[/size][/font][/i] , let go - frou frou.
outfit[/size][/font][/i] , sup flannel.
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